These past few days have been rather..."ulch" to say the least. I have been having hallucinations, my mom has a new job (yay), while as I lost my job (boo). Overall, I would have to say that these past few days have utterly sucked ass.

I have been having the usual hallucinations. I have been seeing the man in the hat, animals, carnivals, and I have been seeing demons. It can get pretty scary if one sees through my eyes. I wonder if an ocular transplant would solve my problems. It really is too bad that the problem is deep-seeded in my mind. I sometimes cry myself to sleep at night; I wish that there was an operation that could fix my noggin. I now get to go through the arduous process of setting my med levels to just the right frequency. This process could take weeks, or even months. Wish me luck in finding the right cocktail again. I know that this will probably land me in the hospital again.

The one good thing this week is the fact that my mom got a new job at a candy store! As far as I know, she loves it. She is under orders to eat at least one piece of every candy in the store so she can give good suggestions to the customers. She also gets a 20 percent discount on every item in the store. I think that it's a suitable job for her since she's a chocolate addict; even more so than me!

My job...I didn't necessarily get "fired", but I was "replaced". As far as I can tell, the only difference is that they welcomed me to re-apply for Wal-Mart again. Even if I do get back with Wal-Mart again, I will not be assigned to push carts; I loved my old job and this really grinds my pepper to have been replaced. Why didn't they just fire me and call it quits. I am not reapplying to that cesspool -- I would rather work in a dull factory! I would be just as glad digging a ditch of some sort. To be honest, I would much like to have a job at a movie rental shop. I would even take an adult video store...they have funny characters in those places! Getting back on the subject at hand -- to me, pushing carts was the best job in the world. If I never do graduate college, I would love to push carts for a living. I am sure that my next job will suffice the onset of boredom and will challenge me in satisfactory ways. At least being on SSI will help me out through these hard times.

These past few days have been rather hectic yet fun at the same time. I have been sort of sick off and on this week. On the plus side, I got to go trick or treating with some friends of mine. Yes I realize that 20 years old is perhaps too old to go trick or treating. I went with a 29 year old and a 55 year old though, so we are all guilty of the crime of mooching candy. The first place we hit up was the mall; they didn't have jack shit as far as candy went. Then we hit up this rich neighborhood…they were shoveling candy in our bags by the bucketful! Well not literally the bucketful, but it was close enough.

My schizophrenia has been acting rather off kilter for a while now. I am on temporary leave on my job at Wal-Mart. When I had my asthma attack, the meds that they injected me with flushed out my psych medication. I am now waiting seven to ten weeks to straighten out this whole ordeal. I see my "new" psych doctor this Thursday; she's not a psychiatrist, but she is a nurse practitioner and knows what she's talking about (at least I hope so!) I might be sent back to the wacky shack again for a med adjustment, but that won't bother me in the least because I will only be there for about three to four days, if that.

Well as far as I can tell, or care to know, my parents had a nice anniversary this past Halloween. I watched Ghost Hunters live and I think they did as well. They are also into Winds of War and War and Remembrance, so they watched those as well. This was their 27th anniversary (or so I think). Everyone give them your best wishes!

That's all for this post…nothing much left to say. I hope my readers had a fun Halloween; I went to a spook house and trick or treated! I will post in a week probably…maybe even in a few days! Bye~